My Husband & I had our first baby 6 weeks ago. Abe is such a sweet gift from God and definitely an answer to many prayers!!! Our home has been touched with a blessing from Heaven! We love his little yawns, kitten noises and the dimples in his cheeks when he flashes us a grin!
But even in a time of "sunshine & rainbows" there is still a dark shadow cast upon my heart by sin! Even the most precious moments in life are affected by our sin! I've always been a sinner and will be until I die. Abe's arrival doesn't really change anything regarding that, except that it highlights a few sins....like my selfishness! To cut-to-the-chase, when I'm not walking in the Spirit, I'm a girl who will serve others in love & joy,...as long as....
As long as I have accomplished my "to-do list" for the day and have time.
As long as I "feel" ready for the task needing my assistance.
As long as I "feel" adequate.
As long as I have had time to pray and get "fueled" up for the challenge.
So on, and so forth!
If you are a Mom already, you can see where my way of doing life and Abe's high demands for milk, comfort & a clean diaper collide! We tend to have a few collisions a day.
So, I can already see I need to focus more on Christ and walk in the Spirit, in order to handle the spontaneous needs of a ten pound human! (But we can talk about that in another blog!)
As you can imagine, I was a little discouraged over this illuminated sin. And I hadn't been to church much since Abe's birth. And sleep-deprivation never helped anyone (I don't think) ;-). Everything was a bit out-of-focus, and my attempts to preach the Gospel to myself were weak.
Then, by God's grace, my little family of three, walked into church yesterday! Late. But we made it! :-) The worship band had just begun playing "Revelation Song" (one of my favorites). The band and vocalists sounded great and the church was singing with their whole heart! Immediately the words, "Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord God Almighty" just overtook me with relief! Oh! My weak heart had forgotten that even when I'm caught up in sin or discouragement, upset with God's way of ordering my life or just plain exhausted...HE IS HOLY!!! It doesn't matter what I think or feel....God is HOLY!
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever!" -Hebrews 13:8
"Your way, O God, is holy; What god is great like our God?" -Psalm 77:13
"Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come!" -Revelation 4:8b
Once again, I was reminded to readjust my focus. To turn my eyes away from myself and onto my Heavenly Father, the Holy One! Reassurance of His grace, His power and His love sustain me onward in His peace!! May you remember to:
"Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face.
And the things of this earth,
will grow strangely dim,
in the light of His glory and grace."
Bonus Material for your Encouragement:
1) R.C. Sproul's book, "The Holiness of God" is a great read!
2) "Revelation Song"